The Diary of a Late Bloomer (188)

It slowly turned, you let me burn. And now, we’re ashes on the ground

Don’t you ever say, I just walked away
I will always want you

I do, see you, but you are not coming down

Hi, uptown boy, how have you been? Dear you, what if I’m only capable of loving you? I never hit so hard in love and I don’t know how to start over, even the thought of loving another feels like cheating on you. Even the thought of starting over makes me feel broken hearted because the empty room is supposedly for you since the beginning and it is occupied, rather using force, I let you in. Instead of breaking your walls, you break my walls. I know I will be okay, but it doesn’t necessarily mean I want your place to be replaced. I have put you there and you will always stay put there. It’s okay to be alone I’d rather be alone if it is not to be with you.

I never hit so hard in love

All I wanted was to break your walls

All you ever did was wreck me

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Dia Itu Luka

Dia, sayangnya luka


Kuteringat, hati

Yang bertabur, mimpi

Kemana kau pergi, cinta?

Namanya Diang, tapi panggil saja Dia. Dia, perempuan itu aku lihat selalu sendiri, entah kenapa tapi diam-diam Dia menjadi enigma yang aku nikmati. Perawakannya yang semampai, rambut panjang berponi yang tergerai; kadang Dia menjepitnya keatas, aku pikir mungkin karena gerah dan sepatu 5 cm-nya membuatnya sangat Dia.

Dia, cantiknya biasa saja, tapi aku hanya suka mengamati diam dan geriknya. Bagiku, perempuan itu sesungguhnya tidak begitu misterius, menjadi misterius karena tidak mengenalnya, “mystery comes after ignorance“. Tapi sesekali, Dia mengutas senyum, ah, sayangnya cepat pula berubah sembab. Dia, jadi seperti apakah hatinya?

Dan Dia yang memulainya, aku mengernyit dengan tanya menyeruak, “Dia, kenapa selalu sendiri? Lelah mencari hati untuk diusik?”

Dia mungkin dipermainkan cinta. Siapa yang begitu tega menyisakan luka? Pria mana?” Sembari menyesap aroma udara terbersit praduga yang mulai tengil, “Atau mungkin Dia terlalu menyukai dirinya? Dia seorang narsisis? Dia akhirnya tersadar cinta hanya mengganjarnya tangis.” Lalu aku berdeham karena aku paham, “Sebenarnya aku tahu siapa pria itu. Sungguh pria biadab.”

Sepertinya itu memberi cambuk di hatinya yang meninggalkan ruam biru. Dia lalu sendu. “Ah, Dia, itu Luka.”

Geliat tanya itu, aku pula yang dapat menjawabnya.

“Karena pria itu aku.

On Dating a Young Gem

An illustrator Cassandra Calin (@cassandracalin) makes a comic-strip illustrations on her perspective to those happen to date a younger gem. It is dead hilarious. Age shouldn’t be a boundary when it comes to love. See, Song Joong Ki and Song Hye Kyo with the their future “Descendant of the Song” could make a match made in heaven despite the fact Joong Ki being 5 years younger than her? Age doesn’t guarantee maturity. Indeed.

Here are some illustrations to portray what will probably happen if we date a guy of younger age (I personally agree with all the illustrations because I have experienced it first hand. It can be frustrating at times. Especially when you are a loooooot older. It is like we are going nowhere. Dear God, please, If you give me a chance to get over THIS guy at the very last, let me fall in love with someone who is older than me.)

1. Senior high school time is an ancient memories for us, while for the boy, it could probably just last year; when realization strikes, you feel like reality face slapping hard on your face and says to you at face value, “girl, you are THAT old.”

2. Oftentimes, you confuse yourself. So, who is actually older? When you inner childlike is in active mode.

3. Well, it is beside the point of the hearsay that will probably judge you for exploiting an under age; that’s even worse.

4. But still, no matter how hard he tries to play act mature beyond his age, reality beats him down, sometimes.

5. When he tries to tease you for being childish, you will go baby even more; and make shame of your age.

6. The more he tries to play act mature, the more it shows his age can not lie

Original source: 6 illustrasi