Lelaki Pemburu Senja

Dia seperti ‘Kirana’ yang membuatku mendambakannya. Dan aku ingin terus kesana untuk menjumpainya


Kucoba memahami tempatku berlabuh

Terdampar dikeruhnya satu sisi dunia

Lusuh lalu tercipta mendekap diriku

Hanya usung sahaja kudamba Kirana

Aku mengagumi kecantikannya yang bersahaja. ‘Beautiful things never seek for attention‘. Dia begitu Indah tanpa harus mencoba. Dia keindahan yang membuatmu ingin mencarinya dan menemukannya. Kecantikan dan keindahannya yang begitu sederhana, dan itu begitu menyentuh hati. Dia seperti ‘Kirana’ yang membuatku mendambakannya. Dan aku ingin terus kesana untuk menjumpainya. Tunggulah aku! Akan kujelang dirimu segera.

Dan dia disana, dalam sendiri dan diamnya yang anggun. Hanya dengan menatapnya di kejauhan, sudah cukup mendamaikan. Sungguh kediamannya itu sebuah kemegahan tak ternilai. Layaknya cahaya polikromatik yang terbiaskan menjadi warna yang solid. Kediamannya yang tidak membutuhkan perhatian meskipun hari kian meremang. Diamnya sebuah keindahanan yang maha agung. “Sungguh kecantikan yang paripurna. Membuatku ingin memburunya.”

Menjadi pemburu senja, dan menjadi penikmatnya meluruhkan kesombongan sebagai manusia yang acapkali lupa bahwa hidup begitu fana. “Bukankah pada akhirnya kita berakhir sama? Menjadi jasad yang dibungkus helaian kain putih dan jarik lurik?”

Dan tidak sepatutnya aku juga mencintai yang juga fana, jadilah aku seorang lelaki pemburu senja.

Semakin jauh kumelangkah

Semakin perih jejak langkahku

Harikupun semakin sombong

Meski hidup terus berjalan

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Love is Going, Love is Leaving

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Look, you are already look at elsewhere

The distance between you and I

 Getting farther and wider

We are no better than strangers


“You’ve been meeting someone else often lately.

You don’t even call me first anymore”

Love had withered.

There was no reason for ‘love’ to stay anymore, appearently
Love was coming and love was leaving
I was least expected, but it came with full force
‘Love’ didn’t look want to look back, ‘But, love better left or looked elsewhere.”


Love

Only my heart knew the profanity I had been spilling out ever since that day, of your stupidity, of what you might have lost and would never get back again, “You frustrated me, and I should have pulled back way earlier. You are so stupid.”


Love, you didn’t look your age, so what if I knew you were nearly 30? Or you had been so desperate.
Because I never really cared about it.

Love

Maybe you were far too young, or simply not the right person.
Or you might be the right person
At the wrong time.
Or didn’t mean to cross section


Love, now, looks elsewhere. Wander elsewhere. Weighing option elsewhere.
“And it is not me. Love might have lied.’
But love was a great pretender then.
“Fact has it, you leave.”


Love

“I thought you wanted me to give up.”


Remembering your words, they are all silly lies

Love is going. Love is leaving

On Being Shy

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Well, I have been a shy person deep within even though I can be sassy if need be, but my default nature is a shy person. As it is written in this article, every day is a struggling for me, I guess for some of us (but I think, I’m getting sassier by days for some reasons). Being a shy person I am, oftentimes, I have to face these uncomfortable moments as the illustrations portrayed.

  1. Even until today, I have this jittery feeling every time my name is about to be called outOn Being Shy 1
  2. Well, it doesn’t really apply to me when it comes to food (rather fortunately)On Being Shy 2.jpg
  3. Indeed true, I consider it a moment of moral courage

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4. I may come across as way too quite, but I can’t be the other way around, when it comes to my subject of interests (but it doesn’t always work that way).

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5. It has been my greatest problem, but now I learn to overcome it

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6. So relatable, it happens, most of the times

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7. Hmm, not really, I can call out the person directly when something bothers me sometimes

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Well, basically, the illustrations are the summary of my life struggles. But being a sassy shy person I am, it has its advantages and disadvantages. But I’m grateful for what I have been being.


source: https://www.dewiku.com/lifestyle/2018/08/07/154500/suka-serba-salah-8-ilustrasi-curhatan-cewek-pemalu