Untuk Dia, Dalam Penantian Masa

Sayangnya semua sudah berlalu, tidak baik-baik saja. Bagaimana Dia sekarang? Apakah Dia baik-baik saja? Apakah masih selalu gusar? Aku tahu ini pengandaian yang klise, tapi jika aku tahu itu hanya meninggalkan ruam, aku ingin meninggalkan peringatan sebelum kita saling mengenal lebih jauh, “Diang, jangan mengenalku terlalu dalam. Nanti kamu sayang.” Dan Diang ini tipikal perempuan yang kadar cintanya melebihi emas 24 karat; terlalu murni. “Lihatkan, Diang karena ulahmu sendiri? Hatimu jadi gemuruh.”

Tapi semua sudah berlalu, bulir waktu akan membuatnya tegar. Dia adalah wanita yang kuat. Dan Dia akan menemukan pangerannya; meskipun bukan aku. “Bima, kamu itu tidak tahu diri. Tidak tahu terima kasih. Sudah dicintai begitu dalam oleh seorang perempuan baik-baik.” Jadi Dia, jangan kamu pikir aku tidak merutuki diriku atas kesedihanmu. Semoga cepat usai. Semoga cepat berlalu. Semoga lekas sembuh kelumu. Semoga cepat melupakanku. “Kejarlah asamu. Semoga maafku terbisikkan oleh hembusan angin.”

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Watch “[MV] Epitone Project(에피톤 프로젝트) _ first love(첫사랑)” on YouTube

Oftentimes, love is so lonely. Life is always hard.


English Translation

The first time I met  you

A memory of a breathless memory

I thought you heard it

I remember the day I was in the dark

You had a good voice

It was better when I walked together

Yeah, there was a time

I had a heartbreaking day

You are my first love everyday

I wait like spring eyes

The night that I was drunk the other day

When the wind blows and the mind is strange

You are my first love everyday

I wait like spring eyes

The night that I was drunk the other day

When the wind blows and the mind is strange

You are my first love everyday

I wait like spring eyes

The night that I was twitching on that day of sadness

I feel strange

It is still windy

Sometimes love is so lonely

Life is always difficult

I know the day we were together

I had a heartbreaking day

You are my first love everyday

I wait like spring eyes

The night that I was drunk the other day

When the wind blows and the mind is strange

You are my first love everyday

I wait like spring eyes

The night that I was twitching on that day  of sadness

I feel strange

It is still windy

I noticed the lead guy is the same guy in “Yell” by Standing EGG. He is so adorable :). And Bae Suzy is effortlessly dazzling as she always has been.

The Diary of a Late Bloomer (192)

May not look aesthetically pleasant, but the taste is just . . . plainly fine.

On living below your means

I used to wish to be raised and born from a well off family. So, I could afford to go on vacation aboard, to live a glittery life, to attend concerts or to eat and drink a cup of coffee or tea at fancy restaurants or coffee shops . I used to think that kind of lifestyles were cool, but no longer, it is less impressive to me now. I’m now grateful, I have been leading a low key life, I learn to appreciate money, especially I’m currently working as a content writer about financial and investment, it let me learn to manage my spending. To earn money is not as easy as we spend it for unnecessary things, so long as my primary needs are covered: rent, foods and transportation. For the beauty regimes, I used to go to the aesthetics center, but still I chosed the one with affordable price. But now, I prefer to first being healthy inside and for the outer, I chose the one with affordable price as well

I’m not too obsessed with superficial look to the extent of doing surgery or stuff or buying an overpriced products for little to no effects, even when I can afford it, I would rather use my money for something more valuable. I’m trying my best to nurture myself, to be the better version of myself even though at the slowest pace possible. I know, I’m late in almost everything (from graduation even romance). I hope I will find someone who can appreciate me for who I am, it is not hard to please me, really, I’m as plain and simple as a Sailormoon, a treat to McDonald or KFC or so long as it is chicken, it is enough, I will be more than happy. Why don’t you see that Mamoru? You should be grateful and thankful for having someone like me to love you to that extent.